One Step Beyond...

:)

2009-09-12T10:47:00.001-07:00

fuck juny.

btw

2009-09-02T09:46:00.001-07:00

i love the song "best i eva had" by drake. you the fuckin best you the fuckin best you the fucking best best i eva had best i eva had best i eva had best i eva had you the fuckin best.

interview

2009-09-02T09:45:00.001-07:00

i have a interview today with gap:) i know everything is gunne be great! WOO!!

random texts.

2009-09-01T18:57:00.000-07:00

i have recieved random text from people whoo i havent talked to in yrs! i am soo happy to be reconnect with those old friends:) its wonderful! a toast to life!!!

school bells.

2009-08-27T19:46:00.000-07:00

do i began mid florida on money. i love my class. its more like a job than a class because im up and around doing work for my teacher and publishing cool stuff and idk being important i guess. i moved in with my dad by the mall...its really different not living with you mother that you have lived with your whole life. here things are...not my way...and i have to follow other pples rules which i sumthimes dont agree with. but i guess thats life. ive been applying at jobbss and i pray to God that he kan bless me with one, because i really do need one....a girl has to support her self! cuz no body else will! falling for him....thats all i can say about my love life for now! but ummm....yahh thats pretty much it for now nigga! lol:)

summer ends.

2009-08-16T20:58:00.000-07:00

damn this summer has been awesome. i spent 3 weeks on the island with my fams. going to a new beach each weekend, eatting pinchos, having late nights and watching daisy of love. I gained new friends and lost the fake ones. ive gotten in trouble and yelled at. sneaked out of my window plenty of times just to get ice cream. late night swims under the stars to getting shitfaced with friends and almost killing a girl for kissing my man lol. shit happend. hey its summer. btw i noe believe in karma. nd most deff. its a bitch that i have respect for. cuz now i kno that i cant play with karma cuz it will always come sooner or later to bite me in the ass.
but lets see what fall will bring me...happiness and enjoyment i hope.

A TOAST TO LIFE AND TO FAKE LOVE!

GOALS FOR THIS SUMMER

2009-06-15T16:54:00.000-07:00

get a job
party like crazy
beach
new friends
live life

REVIVE!!

2009-06-15T16:44:00.000-07:00

ok so its been months since i dont use my blog. well thats changing for now on! so many things have happend to me these past months. I broke up with the love of my life back in febuary...i graduated high school. I cut my hair really short. TO many things to say..but i going to REVIVE the flame!

????

2009-01-23T19:36:00.000-08:00

what does it take for one to see that you are in me? For you are the love of my existence and nothing more. You feed of my body and nourish your soul. I don't want to have to leave all the love behind and drown in the pool of lust. If only you could see how many wonders love can possess inside of the neurons that cross that brilliant mind. All is full of love inside and out. The jar contains the extractions from the open wound that u left. But you only see what fulfills you and your empty stomach of slashing cuts. don't mind the pain...for the pain will be worse and sicking once i leave you to rot on this ground that i know spit on. Hope you have the willingness to breath and drink. if it was up to the one who gave it to you all, you would lie dead beyond the dirt, beyond the grave.

2009-01-16T19:21:00.000-08:00

hello, new year, new blog-o ...i really gotta figure out how to hook it up cuz its looking mad boring but w.e ANYWAYS..i have nuthin really to say only that i have to start writing a essasy...and think of 2 contrasting dances for this thing that im doing..and i think i already got it=) sooo please wish me good luck on this cuz its a really big benefit for me=) soo yah have a good day/

08

2008-12-31T14:22:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR

2008-12-31T14:19:00.000-08:00

so much shit went down this year..and so many beautiful things wurr established. i am so happy thought because a new year mean new things, new happiness, new life, new everything. 08 was good and i think God for this year and for giving me another yr off life. now for a new year and to finish damn high school! i cant wait. i have everything i want and more.thank you jesus!!! soooo HAPPY NEW YEAR AND I KNO 2009 WILL BE THE SHIT HELLLLLLLLLLLL YAHHH NIKKKKAAAAA!

a car?

2008-12-27T14:47:00.000-08:00

so my dad, calls me today and is like...ok i bought u ur car im coming later to bring it too you and what not...IM LIKE WTF? are u serious??? i am in shock..i still dont believe it till i see my car in front of my brown eyes. i mean my dad has been promising this car for 2 years and i really thought that he would never buy it for me...but i guess he finally noticed to stop being a dick to me and do sumthing for his daughter. will see wut it is...idc as long i can listen to fuckin music i think i am str88888 nikkkka. =]

mayb??

2008-12-23T14:46:00.000-08:00

how about we love each other with true intentions. not getting HIGH then loving everyone for a hour or two. Lets go to the mountains or a waterfall and breathe the fresh REAL AIR and get high off of that. Because u yourself can control ur mind and body why not meditate and give thanks to Jesus for giving you the life u have. whether its good or not. why dont u just make love? if we all made love with the one that we love i promise you wont have much stress and ur;ll feel free and connected to this person! A QUESTION: can u have a relationship with drugs? sum pple believe so...but honesly can the drug tell u that they love you or miss u? dont confuse reall happiness with drugs. because you will never find it. Sooo what im sayin is dont take for granted the simple things in life. dont waste ur life with pple who dont give a shit about you. make ur life worth while. dont take you love for granted either. we all just need a little more knowledge of thiss so then mayb life can be easier......or no?

2008-12-22T19:20:00.000-08:00

omg it has been forever since ive been on here! well i just want to really say that i got my lisence !!! finally..i kno! i was sooooo nervous man! but thank God i passed it. the guy only took out like 8 points offf. so thats pretty good foe meeeeee. but yahhh ..i gotta keep up to date with this thing!!!

2008-09-13T18:58:00.000-07:00

i wanna leap higher.....
i wanna be this flexible....
......in a point of my life this was me.

slave to homework..

2008-09-09T15:33:00.000-07:00

can i have sum time to fix my hair please? can i please have sum time to chat with my friends? can i have sum time to hang out with my boyfriend!???!!!

omg....hw why do u lik me so much>? why cant u go away for a while! DAMN! i have better things to do then you! come on now! let me b!

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and that was a blog from you fellow friend,

jennie g.

(i havent written in my blog o in forever.)

im one weird chick.

2008-08-02T14:23:00.000-07:00

ok soo i have alot of problems with myself. i have mood swings...i hurt the people i love. i yell nd have a temper. i lik for things to be my way.i only like people who think like me...which are basically my close friends. i sumtimes feel like an anti social with no life nd no friends. i sumtimes feel like i have no one to understand me nd my pain. sumtimes all i want is for sumone to tell me how special i am. i like it when people comfort me nd tell me everything is goin to be okay...even if its not going to be. i talk to myself alot nd do things that sumtimes i question why the hell did i do that? but i me....as complicated as one gets. but one thing that i want to gain is patients with myself nd others...i have to learn patients to obtain wut i most desire in this life..in this world. who im with...who i am not with...idk if this blog makes much sense...but who are tooo say wut makes sense or not?

busch Gardens

2008-07-19T19:14:00.001-07:00

is the shit. yes, on friday it was the first time ive been to that park. i actually didnt ride the rollor coasters cuz my fams are afraid but no worrys ill be going back to ride them all! the park is soo huge! nd i go an awesome hair wrap that ive been wanting for soo long!!! YAY! i think that park is soo much better than seaworld. cuz seaworld barely has any rides but wutever! i cant wait to go bacc again! wooohoo!!!! pics coming soon!

Dementia....

2008-07-06T09:45:00.000-07:00

what happens when the person you love most has dementia? First of all what is dementia? Dementia is the basic term for ‘loss of memory’ and other mental abilities severe enough to interfere with daily living. It is caused by physical changes in the brain. This has happened to my beautiful grandma. As her being 83 it is kinda of reasonable for her to start forgetting things...but this is kind of extreme. You remember this person always laughing, smiling, cooking, cleaning, grooming themselves. Its hard to leave with a person that forgets basic human survival. You have to constantly keep a eye on them...its not east when you have other things in mind or a job. Its hard when all they do all day is cry on you shoulder repeating the same thing over and over. You get frustrated. But now the only thing left to do is put them in a nursing home (with her other 2 sisters.) Yah..its going to be hard...but what else is there to do? YOu love this person with all you heart and its hard to let them go..but you have to do it or you'll fall into a depression your self. All you can do is remember how she was...what wonderful times you had....nd mayb you'll get through....but i really do miss her...shes always in my heart even if she doesnt remember my name...i still love her.

nose ring.

2008-07-06T09:42:00.000-07:00

yes, i finally got my nose pierced. It hurt but idc about pain. Im a tru SOULJA lol. But yuh i think its cute but actually my mom think s that it is fake....i wont tell her its real intil it heals nd i can take it out lol hahahahahahahah!! next piercing...hmmm idk..........coming soon after i graduate!

fuck asian ladys in the salon!

2008-06-29T19:38:00.000-07:00

ok so today i went to the salon to get my eyebrows waxed. sooo i thought they wurr gunna do the usual. clean then pluck them a bit or wutever. but NOO! the bitch lady plucked them thinnnn!!! fjksafjsafjdslakfj;ldasf i am soo mad cuz i neever had them this thin ever! but my mom says they look good..but i think i look ugly. =( i cant wait till they grow back to there thickness. FUCK ASIAN LADYSSSS IN THE SALON!!! suck my ****!!!!!

future plans

2008-06-28T13:14:00.000-07:00

i want to move away from everyone once i get married. I want to start a new life when i get married to who ever and move far way from my mother, father, brother, nd other family memebers. Why? idk..its best that way. I dont want a big wedding. I want to get married in a court house. Simple. With my best friend there and his best friend there. Simple. With a simple dress. Simple and 2 the point. Get married nd spend all the money we would have spend it on the wedding spend it on the honeymoon. Somewhere like hawaii. some where tropical. mayb even puerto rico....who knos......idk why im writing this...justt a remind my self for later.

new hair.

2008-06-26T18:25:00.000-07:00

okay soo today i was major bored and i looked in the mirror. ewwww...lol soo i was like damn...my roots are coming in real bad...so i remember i HAD hair dye in my room. SOOO..i retouched my hair color so NOW its beautiful and black! Then i was like....dude my bangs got way to long! soo i decided to cut then.....even though my fear is cutting hair...cuz idk...guess i have a kind of phobia with pple cutting my hair...ANYWAYS...i cut them..not to bad :] soo then i washed out the dye and was like....i think i still have ma pink hair dye! because i had pink in my hair a couple of months ago...so i was like fck it...ill jusst do it again...cuz IM BORED! soo yuh i did it. WITH NO ONES HELP! for once lol ....pretty pretty pretty=]

Carlos

2008-06-24T15:29:00.000-07:00

Could i ever explain what i truly feel about him? Are they enough words? Hmm...its gunna be pretty hard. but here is a very short version about us....Freshman yr (his sophomore yr) we had french 1 together.... a crazy ass class....... He was shy and i was.....very different from him at the time. Didnt see anything much to him b/c at the time i had a b/f. Yah we flirted ALOT..but nuthin more than that. 3 yrs past to make it short...nd we started to talk more and more and BOOM! 04/06/08 me and this incredible boy are FINALLY together, after a whole lot of drama.
I wish you could understand.... he makes me feel so good. like a goddess. he has such an amazing personality nd im so glad that wurr together and i can honestly say that i dont want us ever to end. juss because i can open up to him and i kno that he wont judge me. being with him alone have been unforgettable and i feel so comfortable around him. i love him with all my heart and im soo fckin happy. juss thinkin about him makes me smile. and yah i would do anything for him and i would defend our love. whatever it takes. because i kno he is the one for me. =] i love carlos hes my everything.. without him...i wuld be a very lonely and sad gurl. TE AMO CARLOS! forever.

Worried

2008-06-23T19:33:00.000-07:00

Now i kno what not to do. And i promise not to fck up this time. I kno the limits and i kno who my tru friends are. The ones who i call and tell them sum fcked up shit that happens. And they coming running to the rescue. Because if not...idk what wuld be of me now. I need to be not so careless. i come to realized that the movie Juno isnt so bad after all. teenage life sucks major balls.

My cat

2008-06-21T19:08:00.000-07:00

I got my cat like 2 years ago. That day was the best day of my life because my cat and me wurr united. His name is Negrito aka blackie. It sounds better in spanish Anyways, he is my son. Which i feed him everyday, give him water, bathe him, clean his litter box(not really my bro does;]). Me and my cat have this connection. Like no other..he knows my moods and will give me kisses and head butt me =D its super cute. i love him with all my heart hes the best cat ever!!

first night.

2008-06-19T23:24:00.000-07:00

okay! hmmm....hey! yepp this is a great start! soo it 2:24 a.m. i cant sleep and im listening to beautiful soothing music. So i got this cuz ayana's blogs are amazing and i like to write stuff. just because I CAN! im kinda hungry right now...well i am always hungry! not really but whatever. i wish i was with my boyfriend carlos. but im sum what of an ass hole. i sumtimes dont like my self very much. but that is another story. soo yahhh...thats pretty much for the first blog...ill write sum more =D